ふ〜。。すごく疲れたー＿−。今日は国語のエッセーを終わらせたから良かった＾＾。だけど明日は物理の試験＞、＜緊張する〜。てか、今3時AMなんだけど。。。まだ全然勉強してないよ＞＜。それに加えて明日は歴史のプレゼンもあるし。−＿−今夜もてつやかな。。だけど、だけど、明日で終わる！：）からすごく嬉しいXD．てか勉強しないとー＿−。。。眠い。。明日が無事にすみますように＞、＜　あれれれ〜なんか最近日本語がとてつもなく難しく感じられる。。気のせいかな。。？日本語って、文法がいろいろあって、難しい＠＿＠もっと勉強しないとー＿−。ふぇ〜。。今はすごく嬉しいんだけど。。。明日が少し心配になって来たー＿−；；ちゃんとプレゼンできるかな。。物理の試験は難しくないかな。。う〜ん。。ちょっと不安だなXD．．．だけど大丈夫だよね：）全部終わった後はスッキリするし＾＾。よしよし、勉強しないと。。−＿−。。。

w今このグループ(TVXQ or DBSK whatever it is)にはまってるXDこの曲はとってもUP BEATで好き＾＾
http://www.youtube.com/?v=GKDABoHHKM0
韓国語いつか習いたいな〜＾＾
this is a nice clip by tvxq too XDDD
http://www.youtube.com/?v=GR-mG-Lp2DA

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- Do you like your coffee with sugar? Then for a whole week decide to drink it without sugar. You like to drink three cups of coffee each day? For a week drink only two.

- Overcome your laziness and your habits. Convince yourself of the importance of what is to be done. Convince your mind that you become stronger when you do things， even when you are reluctant， too lazy or believe you are too tired to do.

- Sometimes， when you want to say something that is not important， decide not to say it.

- Don’t read some unimportant gossip in the newspaper， even if you want to.

- You have a desire to eat something not too healthy. Refuse the desire.

- If you find yourself thinking unimportant， unnecessary， negative thoughts， try to develop lack of interest in them by persuading yourself of their futility.

Never say that you cannot follow the above exercises， because you certainly can. Be persistent no matter what. Think and rethink about of the importance of performing the exercises and the inner power and strength they will give you. Believe me it helps. It helped me and it can help you.

Trying to attempt too many exercises immediately at the start may end in disappointment. It is better to start with small and not so important actions at first， and gradually increase the number and difficulty of the exercises. Practice will improve and increase your power， giving you a lot of satisfaction.

Remember， these exercises develop both will power and self discipline， as they are strongly connected. Strengthening one strengthens the other.

Most of these exercises can be practiced anywhere， anytime. You do not have to devote special times for them. Believe me， they are very effective. Practicing them enables you to be strong and exercise will power and self-discipline in everything you do. This power becomes available whenever needed.

If you practice weight lifting， running or doing aerobics you strengthen your body. When you need to move something heavy， you have the strength for it. By studying French each day， you will be able to talk French when you travel to France. The same thing happens with will power and self-discipline. By strengthening them， they become available whenever they are needed.

The exercises should be practiced because of your decision to perform them， and because you realize that by doing them you will develop your will power and self-discipline.

One important thing to remember is not to interfere with your health or deny your body and its necessities. Deny what is not necessary or harmful and you will get stronger.

If you stop doing something in order to strengthen yourself and you find that it is easy， you can resume doing it， if it is not harmful. For example， you love orange juice， and in order to strengthen your will power you switch to apple juice and then find out that it does not matter to you. If it is so， you can switch back to orange juice if you like. You have proven to yourself that you are stronger than your subconscious impulses. Always use your reason and common sense so that you do no damage to yourself.


Advantages of Possessing Strong Will Power and Self Discipline
You need both of them in order to rule your thoughts and to be the boss of your mind. The stronger they are， the more control you have over your thoughts， and consequently your powers of concentration get stronger.

When you are the master of your mind you enjoy inner peace and happiness. Outer events do not sway you， and circumstances have no power over your peace of mind. It may sound like a dream for you， but once you start on the way， you will prove to yourself that all the above is true.

They are essential for self growth， spiritual growth and meditation. They are the powers that change your habits， and are the key to any kind of success.

Will power and self discipline give you more control over your daily life， help you in the development of all the inner powers and are essential for a spiritual search. They keep you on the right track until you get what you are after.

If you practice the exercises presented here earnestly and persistently， you will go really far.

hehehhheehe ... ^^... yeah.. if its THAT easy， i would have started and succeeded!!!!

oh　no〜宿題がたまってしまったTnT。この週末いったいなにをしてたんだ〜！＠＿＠時間だけがあっという間にすぎてしまった＞＿＜。これから宿題を始めないと。。。さてさて何を書こう。。。。てっ！！宿題しろ〜あたし＞、＜ばかばかばかばかかばかぁああああ。ok，that　felt good：）some　what　＾＾；；；。WWW。さ〜て、宿題しよう：）。

あと2週間で冬休み！＜3！！！楽しみ＾＾

oh wow this is great for me :) hehehe i’ll read it later ^^... ahhh laziness -_-;;

Will Power and Self-Discipline
By Remez Sasson

Sometimes you wish to go for a walk， knowing how good it is for your health and how wonderful you feel afterwards， yet， you feel too lazy and prefer to watch TV instead. You may be aware of the fact that you need to change your eating habits or stop smoking， yet， you do not have the inner power and persistence to change these habits.

Does this sound familiar? How many times have you told yourself， "I wish I had will power and self discipline"? How many times have you started some new activity and quitted after a while? We all have had experiences like these.

Everyone possesses some habits or addictions they wishes they could overcome， such as smoking， excessive eating， laziness， procrastination or lack of assertiveness. Developed will power and self discipline bestow the inner strength to overcome any negative habit. They make a great difference in your life. They can make you a winner in whatever you do.

What are Will Power and Self Discipline?
Will power is the ability to control unnecessary and harmful impulses. It is the ability to overcome laziness and procrastination. It is the ability to arrive to a decision and follow it with perseverance until its successful accomplishment. It is the inner power that overcomes the desire to indulge in unnecessary and useless habits， and the inner strength that overcomes inner emotional and mental resistance for taking action. It is one of the corner stones of success， both spiritual and material.

Self-discipline is the companion of will power. It endows the stamina to persevere in whatever one does. It bestows the ability to withstand hardships and difficulties， whether physical， emotional or mental. It grants the ability to reject immediate satisfaction for something better.

The human being is full of inner unconscious， or partly conscious， impulses. People sometimes say or do things they later regret saying or doing. On many occasions people do not think before they talk or act.

By developing these two powers， one becomes conscious of the inner subconscious impulses， and gains the ability to reject them when they are not for his/her own good.

Will power and self-discipline help us to choose our behavior and reactions instead of being their slaves. Don’t think that life will become dull and dry in this way. On the contrary， you will feel more powerful， in charge of yourself and your surrounding， and consequently much more happy and satisfied.

How many times have you felt too weak， lazy or shy to do something you needed to do? You can gain inner strength and the ability to decide whether to act or react， or refuse to act or react in any situation. Believe me， it is not difficult to develop these two powers. If you are earnest and are willing to become stronger， you will certainly succeed.

At the end of this article you will find some exercises and techniques to develop these abilities. You can perform these exercises anywhere， and at any time. Go slowly and gradually and your powers will increase. The desire and ambition to practice these exercise will develop and strengthen your self-discipline.

There is a misconception in the public mind regarding will power. It is erroneously thought to be something strenuous and difficult， and that one has to exert and tense the body and mind when expressing it. It is a completely wrong concept. This is one of the reasons why people avoid using it， though they are conscious of its benefits. They acknowledge the fact that the employment of will power in their life and affairs will greatly help them， and that they need to strengthen it， yet they do nothing about it.

Will power gets stronger by holding back and not allowing the expression of unimportant， unnecessary and unhealthy thoughts， feelings， actions and reactions. If this saved energy is not allowed expression， it is stored inside you like a battery， and it becomes available at the time of need. By practicing the exercises you develop your powers the same way as someone who engages in bodybuilding builds his muscles. When you exercise your will power you strengthen your self-discipline and gain inner strength. The more you exercise， the stronger you become.

Developing Will Power and Self Discipline
One way to develop and improve this ability is to practice doing disagreeable things in your daily life. Your mind and feelings may oppose this action， nevertheless， do it. By doing something you do not like or are too lazy to do， you overcome your subconscious resistances， train your inner powers and gain strength. Muscles get stronger by resisting the power of the barbells. Inner strength is attained by overcoming inner resistance.

Here are some exercises:
- You are sitting in a bus or train and an old man or woman， or a pregnant lady walks in. Stand up and give up your seat even if you prefer to stay seated. Do this not just because it is polite， but because you are doing something that you are reluctant to do. In this way you are overcoming the resistance of your body， mind and feelings.

- There are dishes in the sink that need washing， and you postpone washing them for latter. Get up and wash them now. Do not let your laziness overcome you. When you know that in this way you are developing your will power， and if you are convinced of the importance of will power in your life， it will be easier for you to do whatever you have to do.

- You come home tired from work and sit in front of the T.V. because you feel too lazy and tired to go and wash yourself. Do not obey the desire to just sit， but go and have a shower

- You may know your body needs some physical exercise， but instead you keep on sitting doing nothing or watching a movie. Get up and walk， run or do some other physical exercise.

- Do you like your coffee with sugar? Then for a…

やばい、やばい、やばい、＞、＜最近眠れない〜。。。。今午前2：30だけど。。。まだ宿題が。でも宿題する気になれない。。。最近インターネットにはまりすぎかも。宿題をしようとしても、コンピューターの前でぼーっとしてるだけ。。気がついたらもうこんな時間O＿O？最近、家に帰ってから昼ねをしてる。こんな生活って。。。。。−＿−体がもたない。。なのにどうして。。。。明日は金曜日！楽しみだ〜＾＾。そしたらこんな生活を正そう：）。

この日記、実は長いので二つに分けました。こちらがつつ”きです。

this continues from the previous one. i just had to write. i have to let it go before i can concentrate on hw. but i’mi almost done w/ writing. so then i’ll start on my hw. ok anyway， perla was mad at jie. why... i duno why . but i could somewhat understand or whatever. perla and jie. they used to be really good friends in middle school. then they came to our school. and we would hang out. then jie and perla were together less. and now jie’s like best friends with amanda. so perlas with her friends. hmm i remember in humanities class when jie left the room perla would tell me how annoying jie was. i remember perla would yell her name alot. i guess she didn’t have the patients. i don’t think i have that kind of patients either. i was getting sick of her in sophomore year， i admit. i was sick of her telling me how depressed i was， how rude i was， how mean i was， and all these negitive put downs. wtf， i was getting fed up with it. wtf is her problem i think. but whatever its her problem. anyway. jie isn’t trustworthy. atleast i don’t trust her. i don’t want to ever trust her. but then i do at times and think of her as a friend. but then thats the pitfall， cuz after that she turns. ok i think i’m over analyzing.. its pretty scary. but anyway. i might be paranoid. she’s pretty judgmental. oh gosh， i have to say one thing. i hate how she feels like she knows every thing about me， when she hardly knows anything. what does she know about me anyway. i shouldn’t let someone like that judge me. but at the same time， i do care. cuz i’m not strong enough towards constant criticism. if only i was stronger... i’ll try and work on that. lol. thats what i want to change. anyway... jie hates girls as she says. isn’t she just jealous cuz she can’t get guys. oh gosh what am i writing.... fine fine i’ll let it out. but i already let it out. lol.hmm ppl are confusing. wow i just hope i won’t have any classes with her next year. if i do. dammnit. i just hope it’ll go alright. i hope. i just want to prove that i can be happy with out her， or with out them. and i am pretty happy. no i am happy. i don’t need them. i can’t wait till after highschool. i want to break free from this small world. XD and them XP

気分によって使う言語が違う。。なんだか変な気分。。どっちを使っても自分らしくない気がしてしまう。。気のせいかな。。

woww diaryyyyy they’re so fun. anyway. what was i gonna say... oh yeah BOOST OF HAPPINESS XDDD. i know i know today was a good day :). but theres alot of work to do : / oh yeah， today was tiring.... went to sleep at 5:30 last night... but finished 2 paragraphs for the dracula essay. lol aww writing is so much fun XD esp like diaries cuz its like a record. hahahahaha. ok i was irritated today... but i feel much much much MUCHHH better :) its good talkinng to ppl. ^^ they make me happy. i shouldn’t concentrate on the small stupid stuff :). crappp i forgot about school and homework. ok， i’ll try and write up my day.... yesterday was alright. amanda was sending jie and i the old emails. it was os natsukashii but i forgot what i wrote back in 6th grade XD. and jie was commenting on them. which i didn’t really find it fun. it was annoying me to be truthful. i really don’t get it. does she still think i’m the same person as i was in 6th grade and stuff. wow thats kinda interesting. oh yeah oops. i forgot where i was now.. hmmm so yeah that was bothering me quite alot ish ish... i dunno she’s just interesting. i really have no clue what she thinks about me. oh gosh i really shouldn’t care. how come i even care. who cares really... but i do somewhat... owell

anyway.. classes are soo awesome. i’m gonna miss them. monster lit is good. i’m happy my writing is improving. and then us history.. my grades are dropping... chinese i got a B which was like "what?" and what else.. awwwww physics makes me smile. the concept is interesting. i love my lab partner and class mates. its totally awesome. today smead and ben w were arguing about chocolate muffins and cranberry muffins. like， how they look different or whatever. i think bryan(sp?) d was in this too. its cute XD actually really cute XDDD lol. i will miss that class. but writers workshop is a good choice for me， if i want to improve my writing. and i originally signed up for cosomolgy so i have to change that. hmmm i don’t regret anything. signing up for cosmology maybe allowed me to be in that physics class. so i’m glad. even though it was for one semester， it was great. i loved it. i hope i can enjoy next semester as well.

oh crappppp i should really stop going online...oh crappp i have a quiz tomorrow in analysis. and i was telling myself how i’m gonna study and do well. >.< now i’m loosing hope for analysis... : / kinda sad. ok ok i have to keep up though. hmm... i’m getting more mellow now... the feeling faded away lol XD kinda feel weird now.... ohh noo is this like a mood swing... : / but yeah， i must finish writing about my day tho! ok so.. physics was fun as usual. then analysis where i did poorly on a quiz cuz i forgot we had hw... then us history... which was alright. same as usual. then the free and i went to go over my rough draft w/ mr windus.thennn i was infront of the locker doing work.. but i couldn’t get much done. owell. then it was chinese. ohhh yeah mrs keegan’s hair looks cute. i’ll try that someday :). and then.... we had monster lit. i was so happy cuz giani(sp?) brought cookies :) so nice and everybody else was happy cuz of the cookie too. lol how cute. is weird and amanda and i SOMEWHAT talked. which we hardly do. but it was all good. i mean i did like it back in the days but now is alright too. ok this is getting super long. but anyway. so many things...... hmmmm ahhh ahhh ahhh ahhh my eye hurts. owell. hmm what was i talking about again... oh yeah then whatever whatever and divid l， henry， gabrielle and i went to starbucks. it was fun. then raquel came :) and we all traded(?) off our school pics. it was cute ^^ lol. aw i love them! and talking talking.. then david left. and then the topic went on to perla and nathan.. hmm i told henry about it. but i dont think he told anyone.. but now i feel guilty for telling. hmm chotto ushirometai tte kanji. but owell... hotobori ga samerukoto wo inoru dakedawa. but the WHOLE thing is REALLY confusing me. jie was saying how she didn’t care. but i guess she does. teka nandayo!. kekkyoku uso tsuitetanoka. oh crap crap， over analyze shisugi kamo. kouyuunotte yokunaiyone， datte totally assumptions damon. good times goodtimes. with mint chocolate brownies :) and laughing and smiles and warm warm starbucks ^^. hmm so then we all left. jie and i walked to the bus stop. weird.. we didn’t really talk much... and i thought.."what is there to talk about". hmm ~_~ totally weird. and whenever i said anything she won’t really answer.. hmm maybe she was occupied thinking about something else. i hope things go well with her and perla. they’re good friends. and for her to loose a good friend...thats sad. hmm i wonder who jie’s good friend is.. can i be her good friend? i wonder. nah， she doesnt need me lol. owell. but i do get paranoid. how jie didn’t talk. i feel like she’s analyzing every word i say and interpreting them negitivly so she can prove more how i’m a bad person and stuff. i just feel like that. but i guess thats me thinking too far.. but i don’t think jie is that open to think of ppl in good ways. or i guess she just has mood swings and that influences her views..cuz she changes her mind SO much. but anyway. i’ve always felt her being hostile towards me. i guess she just wasn’t in a good mood then. owell. hmm so we were talking about what classes we’re taking next year. and she says ap physics and speech. i was like cool. but then i thought.. wth... maybe we’ll be in the same class again. am i gonna relive sophomore year and feel miserable again? oh crappp i dunno what to do now. i dunno WHY i feel this way， but i don’t， and i really don’t want to be in classes with her. sophomore year i had every class(other than chinese) with her and i was totally sick and depressed. it seemed like she’ll say stuff， and i molded into what she said. yeah she’s manipulative. i should watch out. i wish she’ll stop whatever. i’m happy the way things are. i kinda can’t wait till college. then i won’t see her. i’m greatful for that. i can’t wait i can’t wait i can’t wait. gosh weird... i don’t think jie thinks of me as a friend. i’m seriously just a person to her. who she can hang out with. and make it seem like she’s living her youth to the fullest by hanging out w/ friends. ok …